Thursday, November 27, 2008

Coming Back to Center

Last night was Thanksgiving and we truly celebrated Thai style! I went out to dinner with a few friends from Canada and the US to this cheesy American diner serving turkey, mashed potatoes, pumpkin pie and wine, and we had such a great time! The food was really not that good, but the comforting feelings of home that it gave us made the night so perfect! I taught a yoga class earlier in the evening, focusing on gratitude for all the abundance and beauty that we have in our lives. It was a really special evening dedicated towards remembering the simple things that we are so blessed with everyday. Recieving the opportunity to travel the world and see so many new things, when so many people will never leave their villages. Having a roof over our head, food on our plates and clothes to cover our bodies, when so many are starving and without a place to call home. Being able to practice our yoga in a safe and peaceful environment, when many places in the world are stricken with war and turmoil. All of the love, joys, personal strengths, passions, opportunities for growth, relationships, struggles, and uncontrollable laughter that makes life worth living each and every moment! We really are SO blessed to be alive, and to be experiencing this amazing journey called life. Being grateful should be a part of our daily practice, but sometimes it takes the holiday seasons to bring us back home. With all of the political unrest that is happening right now in Thailand, as well as the social, economic and environmental injustices that are taking place all over the world, I find that gratitude can be really grounding and helps to bring me back to my center.

So I want to update you on the situation right now in Thailand, because I know there is a lot going on in the media that may be making you feel worried about me. I am completely ok, and I promise that everything is safe here right now. I actually have not even seen any demonstrations or rioting because it is all taking places at the Bangkok airports, and more recently at the Chanig Mai airport as well. Despite what the media may portray, the intention is a peaceful demonstration directed towards overcoming corruption in the government. Although it's supposed to be a Democratic system, the Thai people do not have much say in the decisions made by their government and they feel that now is the time to speak out before the next Prime Minister is elected. I think that their courage and strength to stand up for what they believe in is really incredible, and I do hope that changes take shape in the government so that the people can feel that their voices make a difference in their country. Demonstrators are sitting on the run ways of both international airports in Bangkok, which is the central hub for flights all around Asia. It began on Tuesday night and people are stranded in all different parts of the world, waiting for the government to take some form of action, and for the airports to reopen. I am actually surprised that it has gone on this long, because this is a vital part of the Thai economy and I feel that the government is really putting the country in jeopardy by not listening to the peoples requests. I know in the media it is being portrayed as a type of terrorist act, but the demonstrators are young educated students and professionals just like me, who are tired of being controlled by a corrupt government. I believe everyone has a right to have their voices heard. As of this morning, the government ordered the police to go in and clear the run ways of all demonstrators, and I just pray that no one else gets hurt! There have already been some casualities, which is far from what the peaceful Thai people want.

Within the past week there has also been a bit of trouble with the yoga studios here in town and with acquiring authentic working visas for the yoga teachers. Most of the studios have closed down for a couple weeks while all of the legal matters are sorted out, so my teaching schedule has really slimmed down. This week I only taught the Thanksgiving class last night which was only offered to the community on a word or mouth basis. We are hoping to have everything reopened within a few weeks, and I have a lot of trust that it will work it's way out exactly the way it is supposed to. This unexpected change has created some extra time for me to explore other areas of Chaing Mai. This weekend I am going camping with some friends, up in the tropical mountains overlooking an amazing canon. I am excited to get away from the city for a bit, do some hiking and to see the clear starry night sky. Next week I am planning on taking a week long Thai Yoga Massage course at one of the local schools here in town. Since a lot of my friends are massage students I have been lucky enough to receive weekly treatments, either on a yoga trade basis or they will often use me as a body to practice on. I know, I know, rough life! I have really been exposed to the deeply healing benifits of massage- physcialy, emotionaly and psychologicaly- and I'm really excited to learn more about it. Touch is a huge part of Asian culture, and I think it's something we really have gotten away from in the west. Although I'm not interested in becoming a massage therapist, I am looking forward to incorporating some of the physical adjustments into my yoga classes, as well as giving my friends and family special loving treatments. Hopefully some of you are interested in letting me practice on you when I get home!

Have a wonderful weekend and I will talk to you again soon
Peace
April

Thursday, November 20, 2008

Hello Again!

I feel like so much as happened since I last wrote, and I'm not quite sure where to start? Well, lets see... this past weekend I went on the most amazing hike up these waterfalls at a near by mountain that sits just outside the city, and it was truly beautiful! It's really tropical here, so it's fun to look at all the different kinds of trees, flowers and insects. There is so much timeless beauty in nature, and I find that I can get completely lost the miracle of it's creation. I was really starting to miss hiking because back home I try to go at least once a week... I'm so spoiled with the Flatirons in Boulder! I'm really happy that I found this trail so now I can go more often. The waterfalls were just beautiful and the trail winded up the mountain for a couple of hours. It was great! This past weekend I also visited one of the most beautiful Buddhist temples I have seen since my stay here. It's called Wat Omoung and it's tucked away in a national forest surrounded by huge bddhi trees and incredible greenery. I am not sure how long ago it was built, but I could really feel its deeply routed history while walking around. It was built underground, blocked by a mossy wall that has three small entrances. The dark passage ways inside are made of fading red brick and winde around through different series of tunnels. As I ventured around in amazement, I felt chills in my spine at knowing that I was walking in the same place that people prayed in secret, probably thousands of years ago when Buddhism was not widely accepted in this part of the world. There were two alters set up in the caves where a golden statue of the Buddha sat in lotus position, and where people would sit to pray or meditate. What was even more fascinating was outside of the temple entrance sat dozens of statues of the Buddha that had been rescued from different parts of Asia from around the 1400's. The statues were incredibly worn torn, with missing limbs or heads, but the beautiful part was that they all evoked the same peaceful image that the modern representation of Buddha provides today.

Apart from visiting new places and experiencing all of the beauty that Chaing Mai has around every corner, I am falling in love more and more with the community of people that I am meeting here. It's amazing how we tend to let our guards down while traveling, especially while traveling alone! I feel like at home I was always a bit guarded when it came to bringing new people in to my life all the time because I always made myself so busy, that there just did not seem to be enough hours in the day. Work, to do lists, traffic jams, etc., are all things that kept me from being open to the wonderful people that surround me at every moment. Here I don't really have those distractions, and most of the other travelers do not either, so all we have is time to connect, and it really has been amazing. I have met some of the most beautiful people, and even though many times it's only just for a few days while they are passing through this cute town, it really is just a blessing to exchange such positive energy and learn something new from each person that I meet. This really is an international community here in Chiang Mai, but of course the more diverse people I meet the more I come back to the same conclusion, which is that we are all exactly the same. We all have so much love in our hearts, and when we can openly allow ourselves to express that, it really is the most beautiful gift you could ever give someone!

This week I attended a series of lectures given by a couple named Tara and Gonga who were living at an ashram in India for the past two years studying with a siddha master named Shri Kalishwar. They are traveling throughout Asia giving workshops on the 5 elements of healing with an intention of reconnecting people to mother earth. They talked about how rapid modernization creates a sense of personal separation from the universe and from each other, and since everything is made up of the 5 elements (fire, air, water, earth and ether) regaining balance within ourselves will help us to also experience balance within the world we live in. With the direction of the global economy, social injustices and our environment spiraling down ward, I think this is something very important to direct our intention towards. Eastern philosophy takes a mind, body, spirit approach towards manafesting positive change within the world, which is something that I support as well. We really can not just isolate the gas prices or the housing market or the mass amount of global starvation, because it isn't getting at the root of the problem. Going back to the Dali Lama's teachings on interconectivity: if everything really is connected in this world, then all of our individual actions directly effect the greater picture. Looking inside and asking "what can I do to help elevate the suffering for the entire world" is a huge question, but I believe that it's the right step towards positive change. I do think that our modern lives have created disconnection from the world 's natural recourse and from the universal energy that we all share. For me the work starts inside, so that I can then take it out into the world and help those around me. I am looking forward to taking the 5 elements healing workshop this weekend, because I think it will help me to create balance within myself so that I can also work towards bringing balance back into our world. So excited!

Hope you are all doing really well! Have a great Thanksgiving week, and I will be sending out my gratitude towards your side of the world on Thursday!
Much Love
April

Thursday, November 13, 2008

Loy Krathong

Hi everyone, I am feeling so much better! Thank you all for your encouraging words and love during the past week. I have my health back and I am continuing to be cautious about what I eat, so hopefully this does not happen again. Talk about an incredibly humbling lesson in gratitude! Speaking of feeling grateful, there is a holiday going on right now here in Thailand that celebrates this very idea. It's called Loy Krathong and the festival officially started on Saturday night, finishing tonight (Thursday) with a parade as the grand finale. Let me tell you, the Thai's sure know how to party! They love finding any possible reason to bring people together with music, food, dancing and celebration. It has been a very fun week.

On Saturday night I drove by motor bike with a few friends to a near by town where the start of the festival took place. There were thousands and thousands of people gathered in a huge open field surrounding this beautiful white Buddhist temple. The Thai people make these big white lanterns from paper mache called khom fai, and hold them over a burning flame to create a small hot air balloon that they send off into the sky. As we were approaching the festival, from a distance we saw hundreds of tiny burning lights being lifted up into the night. They looked like yellow stars softly dancing together in the sky, moving with the wind towards some magical destination. We parked the motor bikes and sat for a while to watch this amazing sight, which was followed by bright fire works. We then ventured closer into the big crowd, which at first was incredibly overwhelming because there were so many people that at moments that I couldn't even move. There was food and music everywhere, while people bought their big lanterns to set off into the sky. We were surrounded by burning tiki torches and people throwing fire works into the air. I started to become really nervous- at home this sort of crowded event involving fire and a mob of people could get out of hand really fast. But then I realized that instead of people pushing or elbowing their way towards the entrance, they were walking quietly with the occasional apology for accidentally stepping on your toes. Thai people truly are so gentle and polite, that it felt like I was in a peace mob- if such a thing exists. Once we got closer to the big temple was when my eyes were in for a real treate! As far as I could see there were flaming torches in perfect rows, surrounded by groups of people holding their heated balloons to be released into the night. And in the middle of all the excitement, there was a small golden Buddha brightly lit by the most beautiful white light and surrounded by tiny candles. It's presence casted an even stronger feeling of peace over the entire evening. The meaning behind this festival is letting go, and with each khom fai that is released into the sky, the person lets go of something in their lives that no longer serves them. This makes me think of all the things that we hold on to every day that weigh us down and take away from our ability to experience joy in the present moment- material possessions, relationships, anger, resentment, old habits or patterns. It's as if we are constantly carrying around two big suit cases full of old emotional junk... life becomes so heavy, and it feels like we are treading up stream with both suit cases in our hands. When I walked away from the festival on Saturday night, I felt so much lightness and freedom because along with everyone else that night, I also let go of things that I have probably been holding on to for far too long. It felt great!

The second part of this holiday is about gratitude, and this I got to experience last night with the children and other teachers from The Freedom House. A loy krathong is a tiny floating raft made from a section of a banana tree trunk and elaborately decorated with beautiful flowers, folded banana leaves, candles and incense. I had such a great time making my own loy krathong with the children, feeling so excited to be experiencing this beautiful tradition with so many wonderful people. Since the students at Freedom House are from Burma, and this holiday is only celebrated in Thailand, this was a first for most of us. A few of the Thai teachers taught us how to make our floats, and explained the meaning of placing them into the river. The Thai people believe it is important to show their respect and appreciation to the earth and the water for graciously giving them so much rain during the wet season. I love how they take time to recognize the many gifts that the universe has brought into their lives simply through the blessing of rain. It's a beautiful opportunity to stop and give thanks for things we take for granted every day, much like the upcoming Thanksgiving tradition at home. I had a really nice time with all the kids and teachers, traveling to the river and taking pictures of this festive time. Although only a few people spoke English, I felt surrounded by so much common love and feelings of appreciation. It's amazing how sometimes words can not express the deepest feeling that only the heart knows how to feel!

Many of you have asked about further information for The Freedom House, and how you can help out. The main thing they need is personal donations to keep the electricity going and pay rent for the building. They are graciuosly gifted with school supplies and books all the time from locals here in Thailand. If you would like to learn more, please visit their website: http://www.thaifreedomhouse.org/

I hope you all are surrounded by so much beauty and feelings of gratitude during the upcoming holidays. I love you and miss you very much
April

Tuesday, November 4, 2008

Health and Happiness

It's Wednesday morning and I just heard the exciting news of Barack Obama being elected the new president of the United States! Although I am half way around the world, I can feel the excitement you all must be experiencing at home. What an amazing time for our country and for the entire world. This morning before the poles came in, I went to a yoga class dedicated towards positive change. We focused our intentions on stepping away from the past and embracing what is to come. It was a powerful way for the yogi's here in Southeast Asia to be apart of supporting Obama's vision and dedication towards change. It's amazing how the global community recognizes how big of an impact this election has on our lives, not just for the United States, but for the entire world. I also have to admit how happy I am that this election is over... now we can get back towards refocusing our energy on bringing peace to the world. No more Democrats vs Republicans, young vs old, black vs white, United States vs the rest of the world. Hopefully now we can begin to see once again that we are all just human beings, and that is all. In seeing that there really are no differences between us, we can truly begin to work together as one people living on the same earth... an earth that so desperately needs all of our combined efforts to create positive change. Ok, ok, there is my personal view on the duality of politics!


Now it is Friday night, and shortly after I finished the first part of this blog I went back to my apartment to spend the rest of the day in bed, laying in the fetal position... which is now one of my new favorite yoga postures because it's so comforting! I have been having digestive issues for the past week, but was hoping that with healthy eating and lots of positive intentions, it would just pass through. Well, at about 7:00 on Wednesday night I decided that I had had enough of the pain and took myself to the Chiang Mai hospital. When I arrived I had a fever, and was starting to worry that I may have the very common Dengue Fever, which so many of my friends have caught from the mesquitos that live here. After a few tests, an IV and some pain medicine (I'm not sure what child birth is like, but I'm quite positive that after this unbearably painful experience, I will be more than prepared) the doctor decided it would be best that I stayed until my fever went down. Throughout all the discomfort, I do want to share that as soon as my wonderful nurse found out I was an American she came into my room with a huge smile, waving her hand while saying "Yea Obama!" That definitely made me laugh! I stayed two nights at the hospital under the amazing care of sweet nurses and a very attentive doctor. I have a bacterial infection in my large intestine which is commonly caught through contaminated fruits and vegetables as well as poorly prepared street vendor food. I'm not sure if I have been carrying this little pest along since India, or if I caught it here... but either way it's like one of those uninvited guests at a very private dinner party who brings along his wife, and his mother-in-law, then stays well past desert and asks for an extra glass of wine! That is what it feels like! As if he as no intention of leaving, but I am determined to cautiously watch my diet and persuade him that it's not worth hanging around much longer. I have learned that the best way to treat bacteria is to follow a micro biotic diet which was modeled after Japan following the bombing of Nagasaki and Hiroshima. The Japanes people's health improved rapidly because they primarily ate miso soup, seawead salads, brown rice and vegetables. So my diet is going to be pretty restricted for a while (at least until the ping pong match and intense bloating in my stomach dies down)... but that's ok because as most of you know, between being a vegetarian and having a gluten intolerance, I am pretty use to being the picky orderer at dinner!


What an experience that was! However, I am grateful for the new found perspective it brought... you know me, always have to find a positive message in everything! I really have never lost all of my strength before, nor been in fear of truly loosing my health. These are things I take for granted all the time. Waking, riding my bike, yoga, even fixing my own meals. Well, my hospital room was on the top floor and it had the most incredible view of the entire city, with the mountains as a backdrop. Apart from one book and a few friendly visitors, I had more than enough time to gaze out the window and watch the amazing sky smiling down on me throughout the day. I saw the sun rise in the morning, and then watched it set at night. I felt so much gratitude for my abundant health and for all that my body allows me to do each and every day. I felt appreciation for all the care and love that surround my life, and that I am able to reflect that love back to those around me. This evening I was sitting in my apartment stretching out my stiff bones from too much laying in the hospital bed, when I suddenly felt called by the universe to go outside and look up at the sky. I found a little hidden ladder and climbed up on the roof of my apartment building (totally safe, I promise) and sat down to watch the most breathtaking work of art I have ever seen. In that moment I felt all the beauty in the world gazing back at me. The sky danced between light blue, pale pink, peach, dark purple and deep blue, fiery red, fushia, bright orange and soft yellow. I saw all the beauty in the world, as well as all the pain and suffering. I saw each one of you, and I want to wish you so much abundant health, and so much peace! More than I can ever say!


I love you dearly

April